In looking back, I can see that my professional aspirations, drive for financial success, and relentless daily routine created the perfect storm for a gradual loss of perspective. Although my faith was real, it tended to be compartmentalized. In my zeal to succeed at work, I sometimes forgot about faithfulness.
Have you ever noticed that when we’re not exactly where God wants us to be, He still invites us back on the right path? Sometimes, it’s like a gentle tap on the shoulder. This time was more like a two-by-four upside the head.
I’ll never forget the moment of impact – when we were expecting our seventh child, my wife (oh, did I forget to mention her and the kids?) found out that our baby had some major medical problems. Our world changed in an instant.
Actually, our priorities changed. Despite the harsh circumstances, it was like the lenses of my life suddenly became clear. I prayed constantly. My marriage was more important than my career. Family and kids really mattered. Sure, we all say it. But I didn’t always act like it.
Our son David, now almost nine years old, serves as a reminder to keep my priorities in order. Through grace, and the prayers of many people, he overcame many of his challenges – thanks be to God.
Yet through the circumstances of his birth, it became evident that I couldn’t sustain a CPA firm lifestyle, a family and a faith in the way I had been attempting to do for many years. It also became clear to me that success is useless without faithfulness.